I am doing ok. I am discovering how much I use my left hand:) I am very blessed. I had forgotten about something that happened with 2 dogs years ago until talking to my sister yesterday. One reason I try to break up the doggies is that in the mid 80s, my ex-husband had a dog named Kiba that tried to kill his friend’s dog. It was a very bad scene and he used a baseball bat to get her to release the other dog. My dogs will probably not come to this but it is interesting in how I was aware of this from a deep level (I did not remember it until talking to my sister) and I was reacting to this from the past. I had gotten Braun off of Wyse then she went back at her. I was able to get her off of Wyse and hold her very firmly and made eye contact and was able to get her to calm down. It is very natural for me to use heart breath and by this point I was coming from soul and not every day self so I knew how to calm her down! I realized this yesterday in what I did to calm her down was the same thing my sister used to have to do with her 2nd son when he was young. It really does work! I did go to regular doctor first yesterday and the wound was not very pretty so he told me that I would need a surgeon and that tendons were involved. Once at the Emergency Room and when the doctor found 30 minutes to repair my finger, there is no tendon damage and just a deep gash on the left index finger where the joint is for the first joint and shallower wounds on other side. He counted the stitches and it was 18. He then had to go see what the nurses needed his attention for. I was there 2 ½ more hours waiting for bandage and prescriptions. They were all so very apologetic for it taking so long. I understand a bandage is very low priority. I was finally able to get them to work together and have one of the other nurses bandage my finger and put a splint on it so I could leave. They had me take the first antibiotic while there and it got very ill from it 2 hours later. I have something called mitral valve prolapse so they give me antibiotic as a precaution. I will see it there is some way to get a new one over the phone today or contact my doctor’s office tomorrow. I do not really care to spend many hours at the hospital today to get antibiotic and pay another $100.00 for that privilege. I have insurance so that is very wonderful. I was doing long deep breath and heart breath while there from 9 am to 2:30 pm along with many mantras and meditating. I caused the problem with the dogs in being impatient yesterday and not walking them lately. So I got to experience a situation where I had to have lots of patience and it was wearing thin by the afternoon since I was so very thirsty and hungry. I had not eaten anything and I was able to get a cup from someone so I could get some water to drink. Then all of a sudden a couple of ladies brought me a turkey sandwich and some honey graham crackers and applesauce and a ginger ale (one of these ladies was not that nice earlier but heart breath does wonders!). That blew me away. This happened as a nurse from another team was doing the doctor a favor (his words) and getting my finger bandaged and splint on it. The doctor did a good job on my finger and had a wonderful sense of humor and I understand that there was higher priorities and had no problem with that. I was trying to get them to give me a call on cell phone so I could go get something to eat and I would come back when they had time. That is when they all starting working together and helped me out tremendously. I never got upset but was getting very restless since I needed to eat and was thinking about just leaving by 2 PM since I could bandage my own hand. That might not be playing by their rules but the way I was seeing it was that I have free will and I was not in a prison and could leave. That might not be smart but I needed to eat. I found that heart breath works wonders. I also got to see how very screwed up our health care system is, there were several doctors and nurses working in teams but when an emergency came up (saving someone’s life) they could not ask the other team for help with the existing patients such as me who just needed one more thing before the were finished. It was such an educational experience and long deep breath helps me with the pain. I was also probably sounding a little crazy to them since while I was waiting for bandage I was laughing. I do things differently than others and I am ok with it. I did have to my finger sewn and it sort of freaked out family doctor so I did have to go to the emergency room. The doctor in the emergency room told me lots of family doctors do not like to like to the stitches but they are ok with removing them. The emergency room does lots of that stuff and I met a lot of nice people who once I started telling them what was going on were very helpful after a little bit. It seemed they had to let go of the job description and etc and then I could see them coming from the heart to help me. Very cool to see the energy shift. I did not get much work done last night since I got very ill from the antibiotic. I had been texting and talking to my sister and she came to my house and helped me by bringing me ginger ale and cleaning up the mess I made in my car. I drove myself and did not get sick until I was almost home from getting prescription filled at pharmacy. I had to wait an hour for the prescription so I was able to get some food that I could eat. Nothing like a day of many learning experiences and asking for help and coming from the heart. I truly believe we are all here to help each other among other things. Yesterday I was supposed to work a fundraiser for the schooner Virginia and then go to dad’s birthday party (I was told about that Tuesday evening) which I was not able to do either of those 2 things. I did let everyone know what happened so I just did not show up. The fundraiser was near my house at a Marina and it looked like there were many cars so I think the turnout was good. Very nice group of people and they need to raise $350,000.00 to get the Virginia sailing again. It is a beautiful boat built by volunteers and donations and some grant money etc. It is a replica of a pilot boat from the early 1900s. It is always so great to go to that marina, the family that runs it are friends and we used to keep our boat there until my ex-husband got us kicked out. The owners are still friends and that experience with getting kicked out of the marina was also useful in the long run. I am taking medicine for the pain and getting rest today. My family is amusing and I did not call my parents since they would yell at me first (their pattern) then after they finish freaking out be helpful. I reached out to my sister and she kept everyone informed and my family is s very blessed to have her and her family back in VA. I have spoken with my Mom today and she was surprised I sound so good. I am sore but learned so much! I was not sounding very good while the antibiotic was in my system and it turns out my sister and her children react the same way to that antibiotic. She also told me about something I did for her 19 years ago and it was no big deal, I was just being myself and helping her when she was sick. She told me that she was telling her husband about that as they were driving here and she has never forgotten that and that was one of many reason she was coming to my aide. I am understanding so much more about what energy you send out comes back 10 fold and if it is unconditional then it comes back unconditional. Very beautiful how the world really works especially when you drop the drama, hurt and etc. Life is ok and I am ok.